Today it dawned on me that next week will be the one year anniversary of the start of our fertility treatments. I think I started this journey with this preconceived notion that it was going to happen fast. I was going to get pregnant on the first try and be out of that depressing office full of women with sad faces. After all we were with one of the top specialists in our area. What could go wrong? Yet here we are, one year later... no baby yet. To my dismay I became one of those women on the waiting room with that worried expression I so much feared.
Seeing my body fail time and time again has rendered me a sobbing mess on the floor on more than one occasion. It has been hard, so hard. In one years time we have exhausted all of our funds for IUI's attempts (five in all). We have gone trough two miscarriages and countless nervous breakdowns. We've had our hearts broken. But because we have learned nothing we are planing and saving to do it soon all over again. This time we hope to add IVF to the mix for that unexpected fun twist. Here is to the next chapter. Cheers with a lot of wine. You have to do it while you can, right? Because soon it will be cocktails of Follistim and Lupron on the rocks. Yay!
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